aku~dan semua

TAMAN KANAK2 AKA TADIKA

2012-01-25T06:46:00.000-08:00

aaaa 1st of all how to spell tadika ey??? kindergarten?kindergarden??KINDERBUENO???ho3...

yupsii just now read my friend post on the visit to TK, i think its kindergarten la kan??poor me suck in vocab ;(

pheww the KIDSSSSS!!!, memang hyper laa weyyy...have u seen how cockroach crawl somewhere?? haaa, im not saying the kids are cockroaches,haha, not even close oke... just that i want to compare how fast they all run, disperse when u approach them, things like that.... yeahh its true they adorable, sweet, innocent, just like others say...

but can u imagine how ur mum took care of u guys when u were young??i think u all pon naughty lagi kan??haha... naahhh dont think they act like that in front of their mums, u noe why...

ok back to where it began... at 8am sumtin, chow from faculty, reach there around 8.20 like that, aite??not sure... then briefing a bit...when suddenly,jenk3..

2 fellows ran outside the class...prooommmmmmm.... the moment our instructor open her mouth, the 2 fellows just now quite a bit, act adorable a bit,hahaha, lawak wey reaksi tu... then 1 more kid came, make 3 all of them for our group, Bagas, Tito, and Yasin..

well, im not sure im going to write it down or not, mcm xmenarik je how i tell the story,lol... but all tests went well, even i had the chance to play at the playground-remind me of the old days,keh3....

to be truth, im not so good with the kids... but they usually kinda stick to me for a while, which kinda awkward sometimes,lol..

k lah thats all i guess, salam

HISTORY + JEWS AND CHRISTIAN ALLIANCE

2012-01-25T05:53:00.001-08:00

i watched this video before this, then the publisher took it out because it may confuse other viewers...yeah because its just a theory, put that in mind...

so just now i saw one of my friend posted it on facebook... somehow,its good to watch

enjoy this, and think...

Part 1

Part 2

after all, the video quite make sense when it comes to history that we learnt in school... with the stories of our prophets, plus with the historic building that until now there's still no clue how it was built...

and as the time passing by, let us remain alert with all the evil agendas that zionis had plan... peace be upon you guys...salam :)

p/s~ who's done pharmaco??i wanna copy plsss

2012-01-25T00:00:00.000-08:00

fell for your eyes...

this time the same...

what a beautiful creation.

kelassss!!!

2012-01-24T07:58:00.000-08:00

bila la nak CUTI nih..aku da start malas nk p kelas daa nii...

Abdurrahman bin Auf

2012-01-24T03:06:00.001-08:00

kisah teladan ni mungkin agak panjang, tapi agak bagus untuk dikongsi bersama... untuk penghayatan bagi kita2 yang mungkin berpotensi menjadi kaya kan :)

Abdurrahman bin Auf antara salah seorang sahabat yang telah dijanjikan masuk syurga oleh Nabi kita Muhammad saw

credit to mas ... (xtaw nama)

Pada suatu hari, kota Madinah sedang aman dan tenteram,terlihat debu tebal yang mengepul ke udara, datang dari tempatketinggian di pinggir kota; debu itu semakin tinggi bergumpal-gumpai hingga hampir menutup ufuk pandangan mata. Anginyang bertiup menyebabkan gumpalan debu kuning dari butiran-butiran sahara yang lunak, terbawa menghampiri pintu-pintu kota, dan berhembus dengan kuatnya di jalan-jalan rayanya.

Orang banyak menyangkanya ada angin ribut yang menyapu dan menerbangkan pasir. Tetapi kemudian dari balik tirai debu itu segera mereka dengar suara hiruk pikuk, yang memberi tahu tibanya suatu iringan kafilah besar yang panjang.

Tidak lama kemudian, sampailah 700 kendaraan yang sarat dengan muatannya memenuhi jalan-jalan kota Madinah dan menyibukkannya. Orang banyak saling memanggil dan menghimbau menyaksikan keramaian ini serta turut bergembira dan bersukacita dengan datangnya harta dan rizqi yang dibawa kafilah itu ……

Ummul Mu’minin Aisyah r.a. demi mendengar suara hiruk pikuk itu ia bertanya: “Apakah yang telah terjadi di kota Madinah…..?” Mendapat jawaban, bahwa kafilah Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf barn datang dari Svam membawa barang-barang dagangannya . .. Kata Ummul Mu’minin lagi: — “Kafilah yang telah menyebabkan semua kesibukan ini?” “Benar, ya Ummal Mu’minin … karena ada 700 kendaraan…… !” Ummul Mu’minin menggeleng-gelengkan kepalanya, sembari melayangkan pandangnya jauh menembus, seolah-olah hendak mengingat-ingat kejadian yang pernah dilihat atau ucapan yang pernah didengarnya.
Kemudian katanya: “Ingat, aku pernah mendengar Rasulullah saw. bersabda:
“Kulihat Abdurrahman bin’Auf masuk surga dengan perlahan-lahan!”

Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf masuk surga dengan perlahan-lahan… ? Kenapa ia tidak memasukinya dengan melompat atau berlari kencang bersama angkatan pertama para shahabat Rasul.. ? Sebagian shahabat menyampaikan ceritera Aisyah kepadanya, maka ia pun teringat pernah mendengar Nabi saw. Hadits ini lebih dari satu kali dan dengan susunan kata yangberbeda-beda.

Dan sebelum tali-temali perniagaannya dilepaskannya,ditujukannya langkah-langkahnya ke rumah Aisyah lain berkata kepadanya: “Anda telah mengingatkanku suatu Hadits yang tak pernah kulupakannya….”. Kemudian ulasnyalagi: “Dengan ini aku mengharap dengan sangat agar anda menjadi saksi, bahwa kafilah ini dengan semua muatannya berikut kendaraan dan perlengkapannya, ku persembahkan di jalan Allah ‘azza wajalla…..!” Dan dibagikannyalah seluruh muatan 700 kendaraan itu kepada semua penduduk Madinah dan sekitarnya sebagai perbuatan baik yang maha besar ….

Peristiwa yang satu ini saja, melukiskan gambaran yang sempurna tentang kehidupan shahabat Rasulullah, Abdurahman bin ‘Auf. Dialah saudagar yang berhasil. Keberhasilan yang paling besar dan lebih sempurna! Dia pulalah orang yang kaya raya. Kekayaan yang paling banyak dan melimpah ruah …! Dialah seorang Mu’min yang bijaksana yang tak sudi kehilangan bagian keuntungan dunianya oleh kawna keuntungan Agamanya, dan tidak suka harta benda kekayaannya meninggalkannya dari kafilah iman dan pahala surga. Maka dialah r.a. yang membaktikan harta kekayaannya dengan kedermawanan dan pemberian yang tidakterkira, dengan hati yang puas dan rela … !

Kapan dan bagaimana masuknya orang besar ini ke dalam Islam? Ia masuk Islam sejak fajar menyingsing…. Ia telah memasukinya di saat-saat permulaan da’wah, yakni sebelum Rasulullah saw. memasuki rumah Arqam dan menjadikannya sebagai tempat pertemuan dengan para shahabatnya orang-orang Mu’min …

Dia adalah salah seorang dari delapan orang yang dahulu masuk Islam.. . . Abu, Bakar datang kepadanya menyampaikan Islam, begitu juga kepada Utsman bin ‘Affan, Zubair bin Awwam, Thalhah bin Ubedillah, dan Sa’ad bin Abi Waqqash. Makatak ada persoalan yang tertutup bagi mereka, dan tak ada keragu-raguan yang menjadi penghalang, bahkan mereka segera pergi bersama Abu Bakar Shiddiq menemui RasuIullah saw. menyatakan bai’at dan memikul bendera Islam….

Dan semenjak keislamannya sampai berpulang menemui Tuhannya dalam umur tujuhpuluh lima tahun, ia menjadi teladan yang cemerlang sebagai Seorang Mu’min yang besar. Hal ini menyebabkan Nabi saw. memasukkannya dalam sepuluh orang Yang telah diberi kabar gembira sebagai ahli surga.

Dan Umar r.a. mengangkatnya pula sebagai anggota kelompok musyawarah yang berenam yang merupakan calon khalifah yang akan dipilih sebagai penggantinya, seraya katanya: “Rasulullah wafat dalam keadaan ridla kepada mereka!”

Segeralah Abdurrahman masuk Islam menyebabkannya menceritakan nasib malang berupa penganiayaan dan penindasan dari Quraisy …. Dan sewaktu Nabi saw., memerintahkan para shahabatnya hijrah ke Nabsyi, Ibnu ‘Auf ikut berhijrah kemudian kembali lagi ke Mekah, lalu hijrah untuk kedua kalinya ke Habsyi dan kemudian hijrah ke Madinah . . . ikut bertempur di perang Badar, Uhud dan peperangan-peperangan lainnya.

Keberuntungannya dalam perniagaan sampai suatu batas yang membangkitkan dirinya pribadi ketakjuban dan keheranan, hingga katanya:
“Sungguh, kulihat diriku, seandainya aku mengangkat batu niscaya kutemukan di bawahnya emas dan perak……!”

Perniagaan bagi Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf r.a. bukan berarti rakus dan loba .. Bukan pula suka menumpuk harta atau hidup mewah dan ria! Malah itu adalah suatu amal dan tugas kewajibanyang keberhasilannya akan menambah dekatnya jiwa kepada Allah dan berqurban di jalan-Nya … ·

Dan Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf seorang yang berwatak dinamis, kesenangannya dalam amal yang mulia di mana juga adanya ….Apabila ia tidak sedang shalat di mesjid, dan tidak sedang berjihad dalam mempertahankan Agama tentulah ia sedang mengurus perniagaannya yang berkembang pesat, kafilah-kafilahnya membawa ke Madinah dari Mesir dan Syria barang-barang muatan yang dapat memenuhi kebutuhan seluruh jazirah Arab berupa pakaian dan makanan …..

Dan watak dinamisnya ini terlihat sangat menonjol, ketika Kaum Muslimin hijrah ke Madinah ….Telah menjadi kebiasaan Rasul pada waktu itu untuk mempersaudarakan dua orang shahabat, salah seorang dari muhajirin warga Mekah dan yang lain dari Anshar penduduk Madinah.

Persaudaraan ini mencapai kesempurnaannya dengan cara yang harmonis yang mempesonakan hati. Orang-orang Anshar penduduk Madinah membagi dua seluruh kekayaan miliknya dengan saudaranya orang muhajirin .. , sampai-sampai soal rumahtangga. Apabila ia beristeri dua orang diceraikannya yang seorang untuk memperisteri saudaranya ……!

Ketika itu Rasul yang mulia mempersaudarakan antara Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf dengan Sa’ad bin Rabi’…. Dan marilah kita dengarkan shahabat yang mulia Anas bin Malik r.a. meriwayatkan kepada kita apa yang terjadi:
” … dan berkatalah Sa’ad kepada Abdurrahman: “Saudaraku, aku adalah penduduk Madinah yang kaya raya, silakan pilih separoh hartaku dan ambillah! Dan aku mempunyai dua orang isteri, coba perhatikan yang lebih menarik perhatian anda, akan kuceraikan ia hingga anda dapat memperisterinya……!
Jawab Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf: “Moga-moga Allah memberkati anda, isteri dan harts anda ! Tunjukkanlah letaknya pasar agar aku dapat berniaga….!
Abdurrahman pergi ke pasar, dan berjual belilah di sana…….ia pun beroleh keuntungan …!

Kehidupan Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf di Madinah baik semasa Rasulullah Shallallahu Alaihi wa Salam maupun sesudah wafatnya terus meningkat · · · Barang apa Saja yang ia pegang dan dijadikannya pokok perniagaan pasti menguntungkannya. Seluruh usahanya ini ditujukan untuk mencapai ridla Allah semata, sebagai bekal di alam baqa kelak…..!

Yang menjadikan perniagaannya berhasil dan beroleh berkat karena ia selalu bermodal dan berniaga barang yang halal dan menjauhkan diri dari perbuatan haram bahkan yang syubhat Seterusnya yang menambah kejayaan dan diperolehnya berkat, karena labanya bukan untuk Abdurrahman sendiri . · · tapi di dalamnya terdapat bagian Allah yang ia penuhi dengan setepat-tepatnya, pula digunakannya untuk memperkokoh hubungan kekeluargaan serta membiayai sanak saudaranya, serta menyediakan perlengkapan yang diperlukan tentara Islam ……

Bila jumlah modal niaga dan harta kekayaan yang lainnya ditambah keuntungannya yang diperolehnya, maka jumlah kekayaan Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf itu dapat dikira-kirakan apabila kita memperhatikan nilai dan jumlah yang dibelanjakannya pada jalan Allah Rabbul’alamin!
Pada suatu hati ia mendengar Rasulullah saw. bersabda:
“Wahai ibnu ‘Auf! anda termasuh golongan orang kaya dan anda akan masuk surga secara perlahan-lahan ….! Pinjamknnlah kekayaan itu kepada Allah, pasti Allah mempermudah langkah anda….!”

Semenjak ia mendengar nasihat Rasulullah ini dan ia menyedia kan bagi AIlah pinjaman yang balk, maka Allah pun memberi ganjaran kepadanya dengan berlipat ganda.

Di suatu hari ia menjual tanah seharga 40 ribu dinar, kemudian uang itu dibagi-bagikannya semua untuk keluarganya dari Bani Zuhrah, untuk para isteri Nabi dan untuk kaum fakir miskin.

Diserahkannya pada suatu hari limaratus ekor kuda untuk perlengkapan balatentara islam …dan di hari yang lain seribu limaratus kendaraan. Menjelang wafatnya ia berwasiat lima puluh ribu dinar untuk jalan Allah, lain diwasiatkannya pula bagi setiap orang yang ikut perang Badar dan masih hidup, masing-masing empat ratus dinar, hingga Utsman bin Affan r.a. yang terbilang kaya juga mengambil bagiannya dari wasiat itu, serta katanya:
“Harta Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf halal lagi bersih, dan memakan harta itu membawa selamat dan berkat”.

Ibnu ‘Auf adalah seorang pemimpin yang mengendalikan hartanya, bukan seorang budak yang dikendalikan oleh hartanya …. Sebagai buktinya, ia tidak mau celaka dengan mengumpulkannya dan tidak pula dengan menyimpannya ….Bahkan ia mengumpulkannya secara santai dan dari jalan yang halal ….Kemudian ia tidak menikmati sendirian …. tapi ikut menikmatinya bersama keluarga dan kaum kerabatnya serta saudara·saudaranya dan masyarakat seluruhnya. Dan karena begitu luas pemberian serta pertolongannya, pernah dikatakan orang:

“Seluruh penduduk Madinah berserikat dengan Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf pada hartanya. Sepertiga dipinjamkannya kepada mereka . . Sepertiga lagi dipergunakannya untuk membayar hutang-hutang mereka. Dan sepertiga sisanya diberikan dan dibagi-bagikannya kepada mereka”.

Harta kekayaan ini tidak akan mendatangkan kelegaan dan kesenangan pada dirinya, selama tidak memungkinkannya untuk membela Agama dan membantu kawan-kawannya. Adapun untuk lainnya, ia selalu takut dan ragu.

Pada suatu hari dihidangkan kepadanya makanan untuk berbuka, karena waktu itu ia sedang shaum …. Sewaktu pandangannya jatuh pada hidangan tersebut, timbul selera makannya, tetapi iapun menangis sambil mengeluh:

“Mushab bin Umeir telah gugur sebagai syahid, ia seorang yang jauh lebih baik daripadaku, ia hanya mendapat kafan sehelai burdah; jika ditutupkan ke kepalanya maka kelihatan kakinya, dan jika ditutupkan kedua kakinya terbuka kepalanya!

Demikian pula Hamzah yang jauh lebih baik daripadaku, ia pun gugur sebagai syahid, dan di saat akan dikuburkan hanya terdapat baginya sehelai selendang. Telah dihamparkan bagi kami dunia seluas-luasnya, dan telah diberikan pula kepada kami hasil sebanyak-banyaknya. Sungguh kami khawatir kalau-kalau telah didahdukan pahala kebaikan kami…!”

Pada suatu peristiwa lain sebagian shahabatnya berkumpul bersamanya menghadapi jamuan di rumahnya. Tak lama sesudah makanan diletakkan di hadapan mereka, ia pun menangis; karena itu mereka bertanya: “Apa sebabnya anda menangis wahai Abu Muhammad … ?” Ujarnya: “Rasulullah saw. telah wafat dan tak pernah beliau berikut ahli rumahnya sampai kenyang makan roti gandum, apa harapan kita apabila dipanjangkan usia tetapi tidak menambah kebaikan bagi kita … ?”

Begitulah ia, kekayaannya yang melimpah-limpah, sedikitpun tidak membangkitkan kesombongan dan takabur dalam dirinya …. ! Sampai-sampai dikatakan orang tentang dirinya:

“Seandainya seorang asing yang belum pernah mengenalnya, kebetulan melihatnya sedang duduk-duduk bersama pelayan-pelayannya, niscaya ia tak akan sanggup membedakannya dari antara mereka!”

Tetapi bila orang asing itu mengenal satu segi saja dari perjuangan ibnu ‘Auf dan jasa-jasanya, misalnya diketahuinya bahwa di badannya terdapat duapuluh bekas luka di perang Uhud, dan bahwa salah satu dari bekas luka ini meninggalkan cacad pincang yang tidak sembuhsembuh pada salah satu kaki nya……sebagaimana pula beberapa gigi seri rontok di perang Uhud, yang menyebabkan kecadelan yang jelas pada ucapan dan pembicaraannya …. Di waktu itulah orang baru akan menyadari bahwa laki·laki yang berperawakan tinggi dengan air muka berseri dan kulit halus, pincang serta cadel, sebagai tanda jasa dari perang Uhud, itulah orang yang bernama Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf … ! Semoga Allah ridla kepadanya dan ia pun ridla kepada Allah … !

Sudah menjadi kebiasaan pada tabi’at manusia bahwa harta kekayaan mengundang kekuasaan … artinya bahwa orang-orang kaya selalu gandrung untuk memiliki pengaruh guna melindungi kekayaan mereka dan melipat gandakannya, dan untuk memuaskan nafsu, sombong, membanggakan dan mementingkan diri sendiri, yakni sifat-sifat yang biasa dibangkitkan oleh kekayaan… !

Tetapi bila kita melihat Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf dengan kekayaannya yang melimpah ini, kita akan menemukan manusia ajaib yang sanggup menguasai tabi’at kemanusiaan dalam bidang ini dan melangkahinya ke puncak ketinggian yang unik … !

Peristiwa ini terjadi sewaktu Umar bin Khatthab hendak berpisah dengan ruhnya yang suci dan ia memilih enam orang tokoh dari para shahabat Rasulullah saw. sebagai formatur agar mereka memilih salah seorang di antara mereka untuk menjadi khalifah yang baru….

Jari-jari tangan sama-sama menunjuk dan mengisyaratkan Ibnu ‘Auf …. Bahkan sebagian shahabat telah menegaskan bahwa dialah orang yang lebih berhak dengan khalifah di antara yang enam itu, maka ujamya: “Demi Allah, daripada aku menerima jabatan tersebut, lebih balk ambil pisau lain taruh ke atas leherku, kemudian kalian tusukkan sampai tembus ke sebelah. ..!”

Demikianlah, baru saja kelompok Enam formatur itu mengadakan pertemuan untuk memilih salah seorang di antara mereka untuk menjadi khalifah yang akan menggantikan al-Faruk, Umar bin Khatthab maka kepada kawan-kawannya yang lima dinyatakannya bahwa ia telah melepaskan haknya yang dilimpahkan Umar kepadanya sebagai salah seorang dari enam orang calon yang akan dipilih menjadi khalifah. Dan adalah kewajiban mereka untuk melakukan pemilihan itu terbatas diantara mereka yang berlima saja ….

Sikap zuhudnya terhadap jabatan pangkat ini dengan cepat telah menempatkan dirinya sebagai hakim di antara lima orang tokoh terkemuka itu. Mereka menerima dengan senang hati agar Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf menetapkan pilihan khalifah itu terhadap salah seorang di antara mereka yang berlima, sementara Imam Ali mengatakan:

“Aku pernah mendengar Rasulullah saw. bersabda, bahwa anda adalah orang yang dipercaya oleh penduduk langit, dan dipercaya pula oleh penduduk bumi … !”
Oleh Ibnu ‘Auf dipilihlah Utsman bin Affan untuk jabatan khalifah dan yang lain pun menyetujui pilihannya.

Nah, inilah hakikat seorang laki-laki yang kaya raya dalam Islam! Apakah sudah anda perhatikan bagaimana Islam telah mengangkat dirinya jauh di atas kekayaan dengan segala godaan dan penyesatannya itu, dan bagaimana ia menempa kepribadiannya dengan sebaik-baiknya?

Dan pada tahun ketigapuluh dua Hijrah, tubuhnya berpisah dengan ruhnya …. Ummul Mu’minin Aisyah ingin memberinya kemuliaan khusus yang tidak diberikannya kepada orang lain,maka diusulkannya kepadanya sewaktu ia masih terbaring diranjang menuju kematian, agar ia bersedia dikuburkan di pekarangan rumahnya berdekatan dengan Rasulullah, Abu Bakar dan Umar….

Akan tetapi ia memang seorang Muslim yang telah dididik Islam dengan sebaik-baiknya, ia merasa malu diangkat dirinya pada kedudukan tersebut … !

Pula dahulu ia telah membuat janji dan ikrar yang kuat dengan Utsman bin Madh’un, yakni bila salah seorang di antara mereka meninggal sesudah yang lain maka hendaklah ia dikuburkan di dekat shahabatnya itu … !

Selagi ruhnya bersiap-siap memulai perjalanannya yang baru, air matanya meleleh sedang lidahnya bergerak-gerak mengucapkan kata-kata:
“Sesungguhnya aku khawatir dipisahkan dari shahabat-shahabatku karena kekayaanku yang melimpah ruah … !”
Tetapi sakinah dari Allah·segera menyelimutinya, lain satu senyuman tipis menghiasi wajahnya disebabkan sukacita yang memberi cahaya serta kebahagiaan yang menenteramkan jiwa… Ia memasang telinganya untuk menangkap sesuatu ….seolah-olah ada suara yang lernbut merdu yang datang mendekat ….
Ia sedang mengenangkan kebenaran sabda Rasulullah saw.yang pernah beliau ucapkan: “Abdurrahman bin ‘Auf dalam surga!”, lagi pula ia sedang mengingat-ingat janji Allah dalam kitab-Nya:

“Orang-orang yang membelanjakan hartanya dijalan Alloh kemudian mereka tidak mengiringi apa yang telah mereka nafqahkan itu dengan membangkit-bangkit pemberiannnya dan tidak pula kata-kata yang menyakitkan, niscaya mereka beroleh pahala di sisi Tuhan mereka; mereka tidak usah merasa takut dan tidak pula berdukacita … !”(Q·S. 2 al-Baqarah: 262)

my precious friends

2012-01-23T08:09:00.000-08:00

since i have nothing to do at this hour, i would like to list things that is near to me now...lame??haha who cares this is suppose to be my blog what...

they always accompany me like 24/7 :

1. earphones
2. of course my laptop + mouse + some wires
3. subwoofer (#np Ye Qu-Jay Chou)
4. amplifier + guitars
5. mister potato (no potato d, only use as an ashtray) + fruitpunch fanta + 100plus
6. a bag from JIH hospital
7. some medicines (for batuk, radang, and paracetamol)
8. empty wallet, XP
9. few empty cigarette boxes
10. my blackberry
11. a few lighters
12. study table yeahh forgot
13. external hard disk
14. KIK (kartu izin kenderaan)
15. yeah next to me there are alotssss of books!!!
16. watches + alarm clock
17. specs + toys + boxes
18. closet
19. bed (cuiii going to bed after this!!!)
20. posters
21. bla3

enough lah, still have to do work plan for circumcision tomorrow(seriously forgot just now, i have something to do,hew3)... guys, pls have fun and take care!!! :)

2012-01-23T02:56:00.000-08:00

yo..tomorrow start class d u noe, means now is 4th week already!!!mannn don't feel like going class tomorrow, better sleep the whole day rather than having a hectic life like that...yeahh kinda

so tomorrow, lecture, skills lab, then tutorial at 1...urghh please i want a good santai doctor tomorrow for tutor!!!these few weeks i'd struggle alot with dr Yudha already, damn tiring..

ohyeaahh forgot to wish...Happy Chinese New Year to those who celebrated it!!!and goodluck for getting angpow brosss!!hew3... and this cuti quite ok la, went karoake twice, paintball just now, sorry to all teams, we won!!!muaahahaha... then meeting PKPMI, yeahh congratz to all the HICOM(nabil-YDP, amir-NYDP, salleh-NAIB S/U, sakiinah-NAIB BENDAHARI and etc2)... do your best before next year!!!(bcoz next year meeting u guys sure kena hentam wokeypp)

yeahh still allowance not yet masuk, idk why this time so late, never been like this before,pheww...

k lah already maghrib, mandi solat jap..chow3 :)

apekehal nye nih

2012-01-17T09:27:00.001-08:00

dua tiga menjak nih asyik memetik lagu 'yesterday' ngan 'when you say nothing at all je'... xrock ar camnih,haha...

*STUDY AGAIN

Forever In Love

2012-01-16T22:05:00.000-08:00

have you ever loved someone??
all you did seem not right,
and you rather protect her,
and all you ever wanted is to see she's smiling (^_^),
give her the chance,
to find her happiness...

gotta know how you feel

2012-01-16T21:16:00.000-08:00

the turtle is slowly and is happy with his face of life,
the flamingo walks with elegant grace,
she knows she's one of a kind,

the happy crab danced on the beach to a calypso beat,
the happy mullet jumps for the pure joy of being alive,

the gator grinned as he dreamed of his next meal,
every good fisherman has a pelican watching over him,

*if you can't stop, at least smile as you go by,
sometimes, u just gotta know how you feel...

foods

2012-01-16T08:46:00.000-08:00

kelantanese foods could be considered as one of the best hometown foods for me... u know why???? simply because i am a kelantanese!!!hew3... for some peoples they say we kelantanese always put some extra sugar in every dishes, right?? yeah right!!! well not always like that, yeahh maybe some particular dishes like nasi lemak, nasi dagang, and all the 'kuih'???i don't know the exact term for that, maybe 'traditional cakes'??haha anything lah...

as u know the state of Kelantan is between the borderline of Thailand, Terengganu, Perak, and also Pahang if im not mistaken... so the foods sure mixed up, and maybe there are abit of improvisation of the look, and taste there, as like nasi dagang, for kelantanese the rice is a bit sticky, black in color, and serve with 'ayam gulai' or 'ikey ayo aka ikan tongkol' (im not sure wether others know or not what is 'gulai' since ive met people and they don't know what gulai stands for)... so gulai is like abit of curry taste, but abit sweet, they cook it with alot of santan that im sure...

even nasi lemak also a bit different... if u'd try nasi lemak from kelantan, the 'sambal' is sweet and most people don't like it...who cares since its my favourite,haha... but don't get me wrong, ive grown up with the sweet taste, doesn't mean that im not good with hot, spicy foods derrr...

have u heard of nasi kerabu golok??haha... that's one of my favourite seriously,.. the sweetness of the meat...wallah no words could describe the taste...nyum3..
usually the rice(i don't know how they make it) can be black, or white, or any other color lah, serve with mixed raw vegetables(also not sure what kind of vegetables in it), some keropok, sambal, telur masin, 'solok lada', and budu,hew3...nice, superb!!!seriously...

and one more thing, the most common thing is... jenk3... 'nasi belauk'... this is usually for breakfast...laahh like u guys usually have nasi lemak, or maybe toasted bread for breakfast like that lah... and usually everytime i wake up from bed, sure nasi belauk is served(usually buy from kedai) because the food kinda leceh to prepare also, usually the rice will be serve with ayam goreng, ayam gulai, ayam pedas, daging, or ikey ayo aka ikan tongkol...then poommm put some kuah gulai on it, a few cut of cucumber, and sambal, done!....

there are still a lot of foods to be mention, and im lazy to think all of it... some i dnt even try pon,hehe...

here some pictures of the foods, hope enough to make my mouth drooling!!!ciss

well done well done, now i feel like going back home... miss the foods!!!hew3...peaceyooo

nikmat + lalai...

2012-01-06T02:47:00.000-08:00

kadang2 manusia xsedar nikmat2 yang dianugerahkan saban hari... xtaw nak syukur dengan apa yang ada... mengeluh bila kena musibah sikit... dah mula cakap Allah xsayang, ish3...

hari2 duk menikmati kehidupan tu ada ke at least dalam satu hari merasa syukur sangat sb masih lagi bernafas kee, sb sehat ke, mcm2 lagi laa(dah bersedia ke nak mati kawan2??hew3)...
so boleh la tambah2 kan ibadat, pulun kaw2 ibadat yg wajib jugak, selawat banyak yee(ingatkan diri sdr jugak ar)...

yela, aku pon biasa2 gak, haha, xsemesti nya aku cakap nih aku dah buat kan??pheww... tp xpe kite sama2 ingatkan mana yang lupa, mana yang terlalai kan,

‎"Sesungguhnya aku sedang menasihati kamu, bukanlah bererti akulah yang terbaik dalam kalangan kamu. Bukan juga yang paling soleh dalam kalangan kamu, kerana aku juga pernah melampaui batas untuk diri sendiri. Seandainya seseorang itu hanya dapat menyampaikan dakwah apabila dia sempurna, nescaya tidak akan ada pendakwah. Maka akan jadi sikitlah orang yang memberi peringatan."- Imam Hasan al-Basri-

bila demam2 macam ni laa start nak emo2 kan, time sehat tade la pulak?haha,adeiii kantoii...

p/s~ kpd sesiapa yang still xtaw maksudnya, :)

mode: demam + batuk + selsema + pening + sejuk + xdapat tidor malam (bilik aku haunted ke??)... moga2 cepatlah sembuh, kena study kaw2 nih block 2.3 so that dapat balik cuti sem!!!!

amiinn...

jom...

2012-01-05T10:08:00.000-08:00

alang2 xley tido ni...jom lah sama2 kito ngaji quran sket...

kelah

2012-01-04T21:07:00.001-08:00

malah wey nak gi kelah...isshh

brithday!!!

2012-01-03T08:05:00.000-08:00

so now i'm back, from RJ's house, celebrating his birthday with a 'bbq party' again... the sad part was, RJ not there...he went hiding somewhere at platinum!!! phewww.. someone throw a party, but the birthday boy out of nowhere, how??hew3...

isoke lah, had fun there, played a few songs with Boo's guitar, nice wey, seriously!!! miss my guitar at home suddenly... then chatting a bit, went back home at 11... ohyeahh i thought i saw Huda otw back just now, where's she going at this hour??haaa kantoii,haha,just kidding..

k lah, nothing to say, too lazy to write also.. chow first..

p/s~ i checked my 2.2 paper, suck!!! so now...mode: study ;)

new year...2012

2011-12-31T13:15:00.000-08:00

went back from jamming at 5, slept, and as soon as i woke up realized that my house all emptied, i asked jaha where is everybody??... ohh they all left to Surabaya already, oic...then matcah?? he went to Gilang's house, one of my friend in FK...

okee, so i went out, top up, called shah, and straight away to Gilang's house,... ohyeahh forgot to tell u guys they were having a small bbq party there, and all invited... so reached there around 8pm, makan2, watched movies until 11pm we went out for the main event, fireworks!!!!hohoho... took place at a field,..when suddenly alot of bikes and cars stop by for the fun,hew3...they danced on the street, take pic, chatting, laughter and etc2..

tell u what, Gilang spent like around 250bucks for the fireworks u noe, phewww that expensive... but the fireworks, wallah superb!!!!the closing was like,pangpangboomboom!!!! it was fun u noe enjoy my time there with friends and others... ohyeahh, a big special thanks to the host party,seriously,hehe...

then, we supposed to go to Parangtritis straight away, spend time there till morning, its a beach btw, and suddenly, on the way back to the house...PooMMM!!! i heard something exploded...damn!yeahh my bike tire bocor already...k fine, at first i thought of left my motor at Gilang's house, so that tomorrow morning i could send the bike to bengkel, then dunno why i changed my mind, wanna ride my bike straight to my house...stupid rite??

did i tell u guys that my house and Gilang's house is like from Adi Sucipto airport to jakal???yeahh only that far,phewww...

on the way back..i felt like the back tire loosen, the tire start to slide to the sides, when suddenly it stucked...ohmannn, me myself alone at the middle of the night, it was 2am like that i remember... yeahhlaa i was not afraid of the niang rapit and all la ponn.. but my bike, pheww so worried ok if something going to happen...

called matcah, asked him to come over, and left the motor there, we went back home to take a few stuffs like padlock, spanar, everything lah... get back to my motor..and wallah, what happened was the tube actually coming out from the tire, and wrapped around the tire already, fuhhh, that simple... if i knew, kan easier tolak je motor from there to safer place(there's a 24hours burger stall nearby)...

suddenly....

shit, i left my bike key at home!!! fucked up man...kan just now i went back to get stuffs,...shit happened when i drop my key on the bed,walaweiii...so, called jaha to send over the key...

problem solved. tolak my motor. left my bike at mr. burger stall, locked. went back home.

thought of sleeping as soon as reach home, but then it almost subuh already kan, so wait awhile, when suddenly fadly tweeted me wanna ride motor around jakal, solat subuh, borrow shah's bike, went out enjoy the morning air, the view.. and end up at McD..daheckk...haha

so, just now, settled my bike, went back home... Alhamdulillah, allizwell...

p/s~ end up sleeping at kl centrel kaki lima for new year celebration during a-level at msu few years back then...and i didn't bring my ic, hew3

how to spend your money wisely

2011-12-29T10:42:00.000-08:00

someone tweeted me, saying 'rajin hapdet belog kini', i pon tanpa segan silu nak menghapdet lagi ini malem yee.... heehhhhh

so here's the tips...

1.total amount = 1.8mil rp.

2.repair your old watch = 120k rp.

3.walk around the shop, survey new, cool, branded watches

4.DON'T FORGET to get at least a new watch for you = 610k rp. (lucky me fossil watch would cost me 1.2mil)phewww

5.go back, and enter online shop(PKPMI-CY)

6.DO NOT hesitate to grab few stuffs from them

7.grab their phone number, and call them for the best price

8.buy stuff according to your need

9.so i get myself a guitar amplifier(easier if azam need amp for ceramah etc2) :D
= 700k rp. only

10.yeah your bike also need maintainance right?? send your bike to the nearest workshop, change all the spareparts to brand new, for a good feel when you're riding it = 10k rp. only (yeahh before this already cost me almost 500k,pfffttt)

11. 1.800k - (120+610+700+10)k = 360k rp.

12.still balance 360k, where do you think you gonna spend your money after this??

p/s~ someone save me from all this!!! selamatkan daku dari kelalaian dunia, amiinn...

awesome!!!

2011-12-29T10:30:00.000-08:00

damn, diz is awesome bero2 sekalian yee...

p/s~abaikan gambar nye, dgr lagu je pon bisa orgasm nih,haha

wuuuhuuuu!!!!

2011-12-29T04:34:00.000-08:00

EXAM DONE!!!

went back,

SLEEP

SERVIS MY BABY

she's oke, but i ngade nak tukar2 sparepart baru and all, so every penny count u noe,haha

GUITAR

nice aite??yeahh too expensive for this kind act

NEW AMP
~just the same amp i used to have.. marshall mg10cd, bought just now with fidzuan aka botak, 06senior

SONGS
~so, now left RolloverDJ by JET, after learn this one, oohyeahh im ready to jamm babeh!!!hew3

plan tonight,

SHISHA

STICKER KLATE

TROLLING...

tomorrow's plan

FUTSAL

JAMMING

OH YAA SOLAT JUMAAT!!!hew3 (^.^"7)

SLEEP AGAIN N AGAIN

COVER NEW SONGS

phewww these few days i'd struggle alot, felt like my brain was going to explode!!!

dey, not because i try to be rajin or what, but 2nd year, seriously, too much laa... well i don't want to waste my time here babbling nonsense... hohoho let's party tonight!!!

p/s~no money, so how to party???derrrr

Terimalah taubat ku ini...

2011-12-27T11:58:00.001-08:00

Di kala otak tepu...

2011-12-27T10:49:00.000-08:00

Maternal disease that affecting pregnancy
1.Hep.B
-Hep B vaccine(12h)
-Hep B immunoglobulin(12-24h)
-breastfeed

2.Tuberculosis
-prophylaxis Isonizide(5mg/kgBB/day)p.o
-Mantoux test, x-ray(8weeks)
-BCG(2weeks after prophylaxis)

3.Syphilis
-Benzatine Benzylpenicilline i.m.
-sign

4.DM
-hypoglycemia

Congenital Anomaly
1.Brain
-neural tube defect
-anencephaly

2.Heart
bla3

3.Kidney
-hydronephrosis
-renal agenesis
-cystic kidney

4.Intestine
-atresia duodenum/rectum

5.Skeleton
-spinal anomalies
-syringomyelia

Macrosomia
1.Hepatomegaly
2.Splenomegaly
3.Asphyxia
4.Consequences...

Neonatal Complication
1.Growth
2.Metabolic Glucose, Mg, Ca
3.Hematologic
4.Cardiovascular
5.Bilirubin
6.Neurologic

Viral Infection
1.Malaria
-impact(bla3...)
-management
*bla3...
*cloroquine 10mg/kg p.o
*do not give quinine <4months

2.HIV
-zidovudine 2mg/kg p.o 6h
-nevirapine 2mg/kg p.o

3.CMV
-IUGR,hepatosplenomegaly,microcephaly,retinopathy,hydrops

4.Rubella
-cong. heart disease,IUGR,retinopathy,auditory n.hearing loss, cataract, purpura, hepatosplenomegaly

5.Herpes Simplex Virus(HSV)
-IUGR, encephalitis/meningitis, seizures, retinitis, mental retardation

6.Varicella Zoster
-cong. varicelle(bla3..)
-neonate varicelle

7.Neisseria Gonorrhoea
-ophthalmia neonatorum

8.Toxoplasma Gondii
-hydrocephalus/microcephaly, brain calcification, hepatosplenomegaly, retinitis/blindness, hearing loss, mental retardation

Disorder of thyroidism
1.Hypothyroidism
2.Hyperthyroidism

why im doing this??yeahh coz i wasted more than 2hours reading this, n only this things i could hardly remember,zzz.... move on, next slide pleaseeee

dalam kondisi mati secara pelan2...noob me~be good

patient

2011-12-27T04:55:00.000-08:00

Shed a tear 'cause I'm missin' you
I'm still alright to smile
Girl, I think bout you every day now
Was a time when I wasn't sure
But you set my mind at ease
There is no doubt you're in my heart now

Said woman take it slow, and it'll work itself out fine
All we need is just a little patience
Said sugar take it slow and we'll come together fine
All we need is just a little patience

I sit here on the stairs
'Cause I'd rather be alone
If I can't have you right now I'll wait dear
Sometimes I get so tense but I can't speed up the time
But you know love there's one more thing to consider

Said woman take it slow and it'll work itself out fine
You and I'll just use a little patience
Said sugar take the time cause the lights are shining bright
You and I've got what it takes to make it
We won't fake it, I'll never break it
'Cause I can't take it

Little patience, mmm yeah, mm yeah
Need a little patience, yeah
Just a little patience, yeah
Some more patience, yeah
Could use some patience, yeah
Gotta have some patience, yeah
All it takes is patience
Just a little patience
Is all you need

I've been walking the streets at night
Just trying to get it right
Its hard to see with so many around
You know I don't like being stuck in the crowd
And the streets don't change
But maybe the names
I ain't got time for the game cause I need you
Yeah, yeah, yeah, 'cause I need you

p/s: lol baby, study2 la sempat baca blog pulak

terpost

2011-12-25T00:26:00.000-08:00

bukan banyak masa, bukan nak cakap dah habes baca, bukan dah habes exam pon, saje nak post, haha babaiii

don't have to read this

2011-12-19T00:18:00.000-08:00

when i was a kid, my mum said i won't be far away from home long, i love to hang out with siblings, being close to family, that's what my mum said...

then i started with boarding school, still, near to my house... i can say every time i had outing i would love to go back home, why??yeahh the foods there suck...

2years after that i moved to shah alam for a level programme at MSU... yet i still consider myself lucky that i frequently went back home...the reason was money problem...

it's hard u know to manage money, once u have alot of it, it would be gone so fast, like ur listening to a good song, then in a few minutes afterwards u realize that its already the last chorus of the song, and u start to enjoy the last moment of it bla3... till not much left than u'd realize ur doomed...

my cousin died at the age of 33, a good man, just a couple of weeks ago... what he left was rm65k cash, his own saving, and bank account with alot of digits, see?? its not that hard to save money!!!daheck... i tried before, but the temptation was too much, i end up bought an electric guitar that cost me half of my savings, and another half i bought a nokia N95,bhahaha...oke2 that's another story, let it be...

but in the end, i think that was not a bad idea after all, at least now my father using my N95, and my sis n bro using my bb, baik kan??haha XD...

azam said: "kita kena muhasabah diri kita sendiri setiap masa, sebagai contoh duit, sebanyak mana pon duit kita ada, kalau hidup ni tak berkat kita tak pernah rasa cukup,... duit JPA bagi ni nak ikut kan lebih dari cukup dah, tapi ada je golongan2 nih still mintak lagi mintak duit dengan mak bapak, still tak cukup lagi"

so i was like, damn u azam!!!haha... yeahh to be honest pun before this i called my parents pon because of money, sounds bad aite?nolah, not that bad pon, different people kan different ways,hehe... until i reached here that i realized that i was doing all wrong... maybe now i somehow realize that i rarely got the chance to meet them... kinda miss them actually

sorry lah, actually all the babbling above were all about i wanna go back home, and, im abit broke now,haha,...

maybe this gonna be my last post for u my dear blog, i'll be here again after i finish exam kayh??... gonna miss u, chiou

p/s: here's a song for u guys, layannn ;)

we rock your world?? pheww

2011-12-18T07:50:00.000-08:00

so once upon a time there was a battle of the band... have u heard of it??? Beat It?? dunno??haha..isoke..

nah here we go, credit to our vocalist, that we wished to rock ur world ekceli,bhaha..

first song "can't take my eyes off you"

2nd song, " i don't love u"

seriously, i the songs supposed to be stay together for the kids by blink 182, and also Get Free by The Veins...

then... poofff, i also dunno la brader...layann..hew3

2011-12-18T06:03:00.000-08:00

sleeping all day, watching meteor shower at kaliurang, sleep again, what a great weekend... hew3,phewww...

BUT...

i'm now in 6th week already, study cam haram... :/

next week gonna be block exam, im so fucking seriously have to get back on my feet RIGHT NOW!!! yeahh i know my result this lately were not so good,

"i'm goin down..down down...and i just can't believe my first love won't be around"

and i'm like,

"Baby, baby, baby oooo,baby, baby, baby nooo" bhahaha...damn u bieber,haha..

ohyeahh to be honest his song "Mistletoe" is goodddddyeahh!!!

ok back to block exam thingy...

result for block 2.1 gonna be sucks...i know i know...so i'm kind of sort things out nk buat come back gitu2 for block 2.2 laa... but then, bhahaha tell u what right now
im kind of

know NOTHING!!!

learn NOTHING!!!

phewww...imma so fuck up, let it be let it beee x4...yeahhh

ohyeahh forgot to tell u guys, in ma faculty yeahh, there's this girl..woaaa thumbs up weyyy, cun, cute, good, etc2,bhahahaha... lame aite?haha..screw u!!!

aaaa so i'd finish reading this one chapter of "antepartum hemorrhage"... just to share with u guys what i'd learn la kan, tu pun if u read this,hew3... antepartum hemorrhage is the vaginal bleeding during pregnancy that occur between 20th weeks to at-term of pregnancy...

so some of the cause of this antepartum hemorrhage is placenta previa, abruptio placenta and vasa previa, etc3... to diagnose it, u gonna do the same process like history taking, physical exam, ultrasound, cardiotocograph, bla3... except that u CANNOT DO BIMANUAL EXAM!!!haaaa take note

when u perform all these things kan, u also kena la assess the mother and fetal too... if the mother or the baby in unstable condition, u have to do resuscitation, if the condition become stable then monitor the condition,do lab test all2... and if still not stable, prepare lah for labor...

aaa isoke lah, i also damn lazy to type all things here, and i think no1 interested also,phewww... (-___-"7

last thursday night, i was on facebook like usual, then suddenly my friend tag me in a comment, " Toriq Mansor, lets go watch meteor shower at kaliurang, meet up at my house 11.30 sharp" bla3,i also forgot already what was the exact comment... so i told shah, salleh, izhar, regi, we went there... the 11.30pm thingy became 12 something,derrr... about 14motors all together

on the way there, wallaahhh the girls,pheww, bawak motor ntah pape wey,haha... slow gile..isokee,then suddenly i looked behind, i saw a group of them stopped...fuuhh im so like dubdabdubdabb... something happened???!!!ishh..then i turned back, went there n checked whats up... fuuhh they actually saw this one big meteor star in the sky!!! all excited!!! n we actually so close to kaliurang already

reached there at 1am something, there was no1 there!!! isoke, we all laying down, looked up the sky, some make sound, some just stay quite, staring at the stars, PEACFULLY...

Expectation: theres gonna be meteor star falling down slowly quite a distant that i could enjoy the moment(like in the movies,cartoons)

Reality: the meteor so fast!ure very lucky to see them in a second! but they were so beautiful that i couldn't describe them for u guys...

time passed so fast that it was 3am we packed stuff, n went back safe and sound again,lalala...

Who controls the past controls the future: who controls the present controls the past

2011-12-17T20:12:00.000-08:00

sometimes its good to look back the time i had in life,
it feels good u know,
to think that i was one of the best,
to think that life was too easy,
that every single day ran so fast,
my life full of excitements, it was awesome...

family, friends,
we had so much fun and adventures,
traveled all ways together till we reached vietnam was the moment that still clear in my mind,
remember when we stayed at a hotel in bangkok??we woke up in the morning, when the view was too fascinating that we forgot that the breakfast there were not halal,
u ate them all, while i ate only cococrunch,keh3...
it's supposed to be ok i think, but u still, stormed to the kitchen and scold the chef for the serving,
bro, i think they cannot understand ur language laa,haha...
remember also in bangkok when we out for dinner,
we passed by one corner,
it was dark,
and suddenly u shouted,
there was a man hung upside down, covered with blood!!!
it was a dead body(bang in the head;headshot)XP
yet after that we still enjoy our meals like nothing happened,haha

life during schooldays were so good,
yet i still too immature at the time,
pick fight with teachers, friends,
first crush,
being good with makcik kantin, for extra foods,hehe...
chased out from class, discipline teachers,
good results,
strolled around, cyber cafe, ps1, bmx, to ss2,
badminton, taekwondo, rugby, hockey, pingpong, football, etc every single day,
went home safe and sound, off to bed waiting for the next day adventures,
life was too easy back then...

so what about now???

yeahh don't feel like wanna talk about the present somehow,
just follow the flow,
strive for A's,
being good,

well,

"Who controls the past controls the future: who controls the present controls the past"

so, there's no point to talk about the present as my past was good indeed,hew3...

p/s: pray for my block exam, im so in no mood to study right now!!!goodluck!!!

do you...

2011-12-17T19:44:00.000-08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you?
Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
No you don't know what it's like to be like me...

To be hurt, to feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when your down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
But no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like...
Welcome to my life

The least thing i could do is thinking of

I’ve had the time of my life
And I’ve never felt this way before
And I swear this is true
And I owe it all to you

I came up in here to rock
Light a fire, make it hot
I don’t wanna take no pictures
I just wanna take some shots
So come on, let’s go
Let’s lose control
Let’s do it all night
‘Til we can’t do it no mo

Yet life still too cruel to be good

Oh, My ex says im lacking in depth
I will do my best
You say you wanna stand by my side
Darling your head's not right
I see alone we stand together we fall apart
Yeah, I think I'll be alright
I'm working so I won't have to try so hard
Tables they turn sometimes.
Oh someday.
I ain't wasting no more time...

Nobody knows me I'm cold
Walk down this road all alone
It's no one's fault but my own
It's the path I've chosen to go
Frozen as snow I show no emotion whatsoever so
Don't ask me why I have no love for these motherfucking hoes
Bloodsucking succubuses, what the fuck is up with this?
I've tried in this department but I ain't had no luck with this
It sucks but it's exactly what I thought it would be
Like trying to start over
I got a hole in my heart, for some kind of emotional rollercoaster
Something I won't go on 'til you toy with my emotion, so it's over
It's like an explosion every time I hold you, I wasn't joking when I told you
You take my breath away
You're a supernova... and I'm a

I do whatever it takes
When I'm with you I get the shakes
My body aches when I ain't
With you I have zero strength
There's no limit on how far I would go
No boundaries, no lengths

can't u see how fuck up u're in diz cruel life...all u could do is to turn back, make it right, adapt, fight....

hate

2011-10-26T03:52:00.000-07:00

i dont ask others to hate u guys... but it happened to me... what to do, terkilan jelah...sabar bero

blogging

2011-10-16T05:40:00.000-07:00

still ramai ke blogging sekarang ni??tiba2 bukak blog ni mengenang peristiwa lama la pulak, what to do blogging facebook and all buat bcoz of u kan,ekeke... nak update amenda eh, skrng dah masuk 2nd year of medical school, things get more serious, i think so... but the most important thing is this carrier seems clearer, and i guess it was not a bad idea to choose medical field after all, thanks to Allah, mom and dad for guiding me to choose this field...n not to forget noor ellisa yg tanpa segan silu menyokong idea nih dr awal nye,katanye dia suka org2 genius that time,hahaha...well im not dat kind of person after all,but still thanx to u guys... for right now im giving my best, so hopefully everything gonna be just fine...

so jom sambung study, baiki pointer, and be a good doctor in d future,chow3,salam

mudik

2011-08-09T07:10:00.000-07:00

rasa sgnt la malas nak balik, rasa nak tido sini jee posa2 nih..huiihhh...apa2 pon esok sampai ke malaysia lah insyallah... first thing nak buat jenguk anak sedara yg baru2 je secara official diberi nama nik amza alisya,heheee... second g jenguk kubur arwah atok,yg br saje pergi dalam masa terdekat nih,sayu jugak sb menghabiskan masa stahun bersama dia ulang alik ke hospital dgn skt dia...moga2 roh nya dicucuri rahmat Nya... then thirdly kalau boley cuti ni nak spend masa banyak2 lah ngn family,dah bertahun2 rasa nya xpernah lekat kt rumah asyik melepak je sampai pagi...plus abah pon dah pencen,hehe,bley la jalan2 ngn abah... thn insyallah kuatkan keimanan ketakwaan kepada yg Esa,insyallah...

jom prepare...

2011-06-29T22:04:00.000-07:00

jom sesame kt prepare untuk block exam..mulakan dgn bismillah,akhiri nanti dgn alhamdulillah...then jom bercuti!!!oohyeahh

the sweetest smile...

2011-06-27T09:59:00.000-07:00

its been a while i dn see that smile...suddenly it appears without warning....

I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin is changin' inside you
And don't you know

ohh akhir nya

2011-06-25T23:48:00.001-07:00

setelah yg sekian lama nya blog ak kena block kot... isoke,at least i wont waste my time here posting something rubbish...lol...hai2,u guys miss me kan?wakaka

when i....

2011-05-27T20:56:00.000-07:00

when i start to...i play my guitar,...when i start to...i smoke....when i start to.. i stalk u... when i...hmmm,when i go jamming i feel u nomore...like3

1.5...done

2011-05-25T20:06:00.001-07:00

ohioooo abih pon 1.5..sakit jiwo rago molek

destiny...it is written...

2011-05-23T09:58:00.000-07:00

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

everything is under Allah wisdoms...it was all written by Him...

but think, yet we still don't know what was written for us...but He knows...He shows us the paths for us to choose for the good or opposite of it,and tell u what,one step that we are going to make,im sure we understand well the consequences that we are going to face...as there are always reasons for what is going to happen...like abang said,destiny is a choice kan...

as what left for us is to choose, and yet it is for our own good...

everything has been taught, and we as the slaves of The Creator(Al-Khaliq) should follow it without any doubts...

because remember,destiny works in this world...but later during The Judgement day, Allah is The King, He is the only one who can decide where we belong...

so dont worry about ur destiny,have faith on Him The Inspirer of Faith(Al-Mu'min)...

p/s~sorry for the mistakes...i just wanna share what i know...

2011-05-22T08:30:00.000-07:00

Love is real, real is love,
Love is feeling, feeling love,
Love is wanting to be loved.
Love is touch, touch is love,
Love is reaching, reaching love,
Love is asking to be loved.
Love is you,
You and me,
Love is knowing,
We can be.
Love is free, free is love,
Love is living, living love,
Love is needing to be loved

live without stress

2011-05-22T05:01:00.000-07:00

well,abah said hidup jgn stress sgnt,nanti cepat tua...renung2 kan lah

condoms

2011-05-21T11:26:00.000-07:00

My girlfriend invited me to her house, I found her sister alone in the house, she was unbelievably sexy, she whispered in my ear, "i have feelings for you, shall we have s*x" , I immediately turned around and walked to the front door to go to my car, I found my girlfriend standing there, she hugged me and said: "you've won my trust"... Moral of the story: always keep your condoms in the car

so far away

2011-05-21T08:15:00.000-07:00

Never feared for anything
Never shamed but never free
A life to heal the broken heart with all that it could

Lived a life so endlessly
Saw beyond what others see
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could

Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Plans of what our futures hold
Foolish lies of growing old
It seems we're so invincible
The truth is so cold

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind

Where you can stay
You can stay away forever

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
I have so much to say but you're so far away

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid
The ones we love are here with me
Lay away a place for me
Cause as soon as I'm done I'll be on my way
To live eternally

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
When I have so much to say and you're so far away

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong and urges rise
But I'll see you
When it lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands are untied

So far away
And I need you to know

So far away
And I need you to
I need you to know

such a beautiful song for me

2011-05-19T16:59:00.000-07:00

Yesterday,
All my troubles seemed so far away,
Now it looks as though they're here to stay,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Suddenly,
I'm not half the man I used to be,
There's a shadow hanging over me,
Oh, yesterday came suddenly.

Why she
Had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say.
I said,
Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Why she
Had to go I don't know, she wouldn't say.
I said,
Something wrong, now I long for yesterday.

Yesterday,
Love was such an easy game to play,
Now I need a place to hide away,
Oh, I believe in yesterday.

Mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm-mm.

tutorial..

2011-05-19T15:33:00.000-07:00

jom kita berusaha mencari Lo di pagi hari...huhehehehe

new house...

2011-05-18T04:56:00.000-07:00

been living in diz empty house bab kata eminem... i got new room, new iinternet excess(means no need to top4 the thing nmore)..but its so quite in here..ohh mann..

mother's day!!

2011-05-08T08:44:00.000-07:00

sms delivered... torik: selamat hari ibu mama!!! ajok abah g dating slaluh,hihi..... no rep..huhu,..isoke i noe u read my text ma...i pray for ur success,ur happiness n ur health... for sure u noe dat i love u so much,but i juz wana let d world noe it too dat i love u ma!!!

got to change

2011-04-13T03:53:00.000-07:00

from now on i juz wana take care of ma own.

thanx

2011-04-04T09:46:00.000-07:00

thanks for forgetting it... ur d most wonderful ever..=)

msu...

2011-04-01T10:02:00.000-07:00

mizang:nyekit ah sek2 mg gugha...tepat pelawak
pofin:pedah ah sek2 mg,kg pauh
spark:jimat2..
mtcah:dota3
jaha:ak follow jah
cakip:ak kecek klate la jugok,grrrr
labu:sek awek,haaha
ijat:aduh ak blk gombak lagi...
yeng(mama):meh g maye sura
......etc...d most enjoyable part was they all kaki futsal,takraw..ouchh,miss playing takraw gilo3..

how to say..i do miss msu's lyfe so much..n also u guys..here seems so much diff,d environment,here abit diff wit wat we used to have together... well i dn blame others,its juz like i dn have same thing in common,...its like how to say,i do futsal,i do jamming,but d feeling is bit diff,i dont know y,but i dn enjoy it like i used to...even some of u guys change abit,its abit awkward after all...

i do miss playing guitar,sing outloud during free time,together...watch movies,together... "enjoy" playing futsal,together..having a day to anywer,together,study,together,celeb beday,together...etc3...i think its d medic think coz all diz stress to epen,im not sure,but d obvious thing is i juz cant adapt wit diz ppls...

ice skating after finish a2

enjoy jamming wit u guys damn much,n not to forget ex vokalist kopa,haha

geng2 lara musik,haha

walaupun xbrapa kemas,ni tempat tidor terbapak baek punyee

dota stiap kali slesai study..(walao ak jarang dota)

si pofin maen layang gitar ak...greng3

rambut mtcah waktu kurang penghayatan pendidikan lg,ahaha,sori cah

futsal d pagi2 buta...

about someone

2011-03-29T06:54:00.000-07:00

Sometimes you have to test someone, not because you don't trust them, but to see how much they'll sacrifice for you. And sometimes you have to let them go, not because you suddenly stopped loving them, but to see if they love you enough to come back.

slow down...

2011-03-28T08:05:00.000-07:00

well d beat is tut tak tut tak tut tak...not tutaktutaktutak..akaka,dats y la,aiyaa,i thing my tempo is off edy... so later after exam im goin to find the lost soul back,..thn enjoy ma jamming session wit ozi,jaha,n pram,pepepeppppp... orait so now we played starlight,plug in baby n oso pieces..waahh,new songs wit new band,agagaga.. but still i miss playing radio,i dont love u etc etc etc with my old gigs..miss them quite much laahh,lucky izhar is here wit me,agaga..bereh haa,nati lepas exam kt g jamm xingt dunia sket(gurau jah)hihihi..

damn!focus man,ur exam is comin,make sure diz time u score kaw3 punye!!!n gudlark to all frenz,n batch frens also...chow3kitroad

wonderim..

2011-03-27T02:58:00.000-07:00

well its quite obvious wen exam is coming i started blogging la,doin sumtin dat could waste ma time...sigh...

sumhow i juz closed d book...starting from i woke up at 12 n study non stop..amazing kan kan kan??hahaha...so i can feel my brain so tensed right now,n therefore,after all d hardwork..i juz wish for a cigarette okeh??hiihi.. or mayb a few minutes break for blogging,facebooking,n all useless stuff lah...

so long good bye...

jalan2 bersama motor blade..agaga

2011-03-26T23:57:00.000-07:00

well ni ekceli pic masa bersama budak2 nih d fudfetz

ronda2 d burjo belakang demi mencari seseruk rokok...agaga

wasting ma time...

2011-03-26T23:07:00.000-07:00

sometimes i do think of it, like wat im doin now are just ways of me wasting ma time,everything... u see, i take medicine,but its not even ma choice...i love playing guitar,but due to diz i have no time to practise it,.. i do study alot for d exam,but lastly i still having not so good result.......i did struggle alot for u but still......all of it..damn pathetic right... sometimes i wish i could have sum1 dat can hear to all ma wish n could do sumtin about it,... i never had sum1 like dat... pity me kan..somehow diz is me rite,i owez handle everything,put everything n others matter on ma shoulder,so be it... lets study for diz coming exam,chow3

exam fever...

2011-03-25T09:46:00.000-07:00

d exam is coming, n how much time do i have???err thinking,i think its still more than a week left,ekeke,so b cool... lyfe is currently oke2 oni, getting use to it d, so better keep things like this,nothing to lose nothing to expect from a person who is currently having fun with d frenzz want to be perhaps...

n as usual my guitar skills is getting worst to worst,no time to practise,no time to jammed like i used to...but having diz new guitar make my life better,hehehe...n im currently want to learn playing drum..seriously its fun when i played it,haha..

my studies is getting better,i dn mean d result,but d schedule seems to b manageable oredi,so study oso not really stressful s before...n hopefully i can be ready during d exam later...

n im having no probs with my batch frens,thy ol seems juz oke,except for some persons,mayb thy ol still dn noe my style,mayb thy changed for d thing thy have,like i noe nothing from wat thy r trying to say,so i wont mind of dat..

so for rite now,im about to enjoy my life to d fullest..n not to forget to study!! so long good bye~

its sad right?

2011-01-22T19:42:00.000-08:00

you see my dear lullaby, why bother to make things so complicated when it can be so simple...but its about girl right?so its normal,huhu...but then just keep in your mind,you can make it simple with someone you dont even know,someone that cause you alot of trouble...n its kinda funny when it comes to someone kinda special to you u make things soo complicated till it would jeopardize d relationship...n im here that witness everything feel so down with you,diz is not wat i expected...but like usual diz wat u owez did right...

yeehaaa!!!!!!!

2011-01-19T10:54:00.000-08:00

anatomy over!!!for now..kekekke,suke3...so now struggle for coming biochem n histology larh....n thn for d grand finale block exam!!!wuhehehe...

-___-""""""

2011-01-17T09:36:00.001-08:00

warrrrrrggghhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!

tuutuutuuutu

2011-01-12T06:10:00.000-08:00

looking back at last September
two years gone I can't remember
when it all began

swimming in a cloud of memories
did I call you, did you ring me?
and did I pick up any?

‘cause I can't recall
every word from your rhyme
you walked away
said I'm wrong but its fine
tragedy happens in a wonderful time

and I fell for the the wrong mission
drowning in slow motion
lucky I found
the photograph

this is not the way it used to be
with me pretending you and me
but I can't see the way you see me

you tried to
help me out
but it seems
it didn't work out
the more you say
the less I can look up

‘cause I can't recall
every word from your rhyme
you walked away
said I'm wrong but its fine
tragedy happens in a wonderful time

and I fell for the the wrong mission
drowning in slow motion
lucky I found

the photograph
show me something, someone
that I left behind
i know it’s worth a thousand words
i know

wonderful weekends...

2011-01-07T09:17:00.001-08:00

seriously diz past few weeks i had such a wonder full weekends..first went to pantai barong wit frens..thn play billiard all nite..dewalinite,shishaing,new year celebration,movie,all of it,like d all free times were full with activities..diz is d first time i feel like im so excited of being here...mayb before diz i still not adapt to d new environment,but seriously its kinda fun,n im loving it!!!=D

shisha in my room,wallao,have my own shisha(its not really mine)but its superb!!!

pantai barong wit all frens,having fun wit d big waves,n d seafoods der!!!n oso muscle cramp all over my body..=D

Dewali night!!!!!!seriously enjoy d foods der..d nasi ala briani,n d dessert,d ice cream!!!seriously i feel like worth it to pay 150k for d nite,its so awesome..all d performance im not gonna regret it!!!
p/s:dnt misunderstand d pic,its not at a club,its juz a dance thing,n im lost abit..=)

NEW YEAR!!!!new year celebration was interesting,first went to nanamia shop,had spageti der,so nice d foods der,blueberry cheesecake!!!thn watch movie together,lepak at kedai,while play firework till mornem!!!love this 1........

so now i think nid to study,d exam is coming!!!wish me luck!!!

wats wrong wit ma finger

2010-12-21T09:35:00.000-08:00

keras,liat,kaku...bkpo susah nk masuk blajar gtar leni neh,adoii..mungkin tua mendatang,muscle2 dah keras dah,sedeh nye.

huiyooo

2010-12-20T06:06:00.000-08:00

woaaahh lega...after put some efforts thn layan sbatang, feel like come back to life...woheooheoo..sori mike

im just a dreamer

2010-12-20T05:23:00.000-08:00

angan2 nak study non-stop for diz blog...wait n c how long i can keep d pomiz..man damn lazy

dah lama...

2010-12-18T08:00:00.000-08:00

long time no c,how r u...im fine here,wish ur fine too since i dnt wanna c u fall sick...r u hepi??hope u r,since i dont wanna c ur crying alone nmore...r u getting fat??jgn lah,nanti xsexy dah laa..wish u in a good condition owez,im watching u from far,u cnt c me

the reason...

2010-12-18T07:04:00.000-08:00

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

(From: http://www.elyrics.net/read/h/hoobastank-lyrics/the-reason-lyrics.html)
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

And the reason is you
And the reason is you
And the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
And the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

twin tower

2010-12-16T05:18:00.000-08:00

see how sweet kan them both..owez together..xpenah berpisah sjak dr lahir lagi....sammpai bile la bertahan agak2 nye.. =)

used to

2010-12-16T02:16:00.000-08:00

i used to have sum1 dat i care d most till everything seem so simple...now it loong gone till it seems so impossible

bin??

2010-12-16T00:16:00.000-08:00

"maaf ye mas, nama kamu di komputer ga ada bin"???"nanti mintak pengirim nya tukar nama bagi seswai dgn nama di paspor ya"haaa??? wat d..just check d first name la mek,bin nik mansor its my fathers name!!!wat d hell la..i called my father,askd him to change to my full name..but still,tomorrow office gona b close,n last2 duit senin baru ley amik.haiyoo...

but still quite obvious la if my name n my fathers name already der,pejam mata sebelah je la,ni menyusahkan orang je..

suka nya bila dia ceria...

2010-12-15T07:56:00.000-08:00

i keep saying doz words after block exam,wuahaha,hepi xterkata...but still, d block exam sucks, i think i really2 have to study hard for diz coming block,no more last minute study n no more inhal thing,it rili pissed me off...

now thinking what to do during 4 days holiday,tomorrow am goin to finish d vital sign report,n then duno lah,duno3 wat to do,but still,so happy,kekeke...just after d exam, i went to barokah,first time kot pegi sane,with azam n his gang lah..also met some girls,apai,baby,ana n sumore2..we were supposed to go to amplaz,but thn azang la,kensel d plan,wat to do rite...thn tomorrow gona take money,n then waaahhh,duno2..

so plan for tonite,after karok wit jaha just now..nak on9 jelah,kekeke..choow3,c u laterr

karoake

2010-12-12T07:28:00.000-08:00

kepingin nak karoake lerr...

what i miss n wat im not

2010-12-11T01:24:00.000-08:00

such a great great life, i am 20 now, im taking medicine now, im full wit hair now, im far away wit ma family now, n currently listening to i dont love u piano version... derz alot of things i missed back thn dat i wish i could turn back d time so i could go back into d past... woaa song changed, now listening to dont speak, ol d old songs,.. im not really into new song, or mayb i just feel comfortable wit old songs since it brings back d gud times i had before diz...

such an innocent boy with small things happened could make such a memorable day in his life...easily to be fooled by his parent, by their friends,but he enjoyed it damn damn much,..he dreamed alot, not really a big great dream, but still doz dreams he dreams of could make he giggling so loud like he ownd d world... he even enjoyed a single penny his parent gave him wer d most valuable thing he could buy just a tora2 or maybe paddle pop,he ate it so proudly in front of his friends like he was holding an iphone 4 in his hand....

n wen he grew older,he started to see girls, he still remember d first girl he felt in love with...he felt so awkward of it,he even couldnt stop dreamed of this girl everynite wishing he could ownd her...he slowly forgot dat hes now eat less, he forgot how great d food tasted before...he started to burn ol d fats he had..in d end of it, he still remembered how his parent forced him to eat alot wen they realised diz boy now so skinny... he think diz is d greatest thing in diz world till he forgot everything dat could make him so happy b4 diz...but still, how it ends, no1 would understand...

he also started to manage his own money, n sumhow d money overwhelming him...he could not live without money nmore,money come first...

now he tried to change, he tried to forget everything dat could make him in misery, he missed doz memories so much...he wishes diz never happen to be like diz.. he feels guilty

hell yeah....

2010-12-09T00:46:00.000-08:00

remedial in d list,thanks mas jun.....

im so not into studying now,so better b prepare to remedial next year...im so not...wallah,..so tired,damn fatigue,turn on my mood sumbody,diz life so misery,better die now...

30 tahun

2010-12-08T10:10:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum....

daripada khutbah jumaat baru2 ni, mempersoalkan tentang kehidupan manusia di atas muka bumi ini dibandingkan dengan kehidupan yang kekal di akhirat kelak.... rata2 umor manusia d anggarkan 65 tahun, tolak masa tidor, masa makan, masa maen2, masa temenung kt bilik, mase mandi n mase segala2 rata2 yg tinggal lebeh kurang 30 tahun... so untuk renungan, siapa kita d muka bumi ini adalah sebagai khalifah...dan tau ke x yang segala ibadat kita ini bukan nya atas dasar kebutuhan Allah terhadap segala amalan kita2 ini,malah semua ibadat ini adalah suatu perintah..dan juga suatu larangan,... ak pon bukan manusia yang sempurna yang ak taw banyak kesalahan,banyak larangan yang kadang2 terlepas pandang, terbuat, dan bnyk perintah2 nya yang masih lagi blurr dalam diri aku...

tapi,sekadar untuk renungan bersama, jika nak dibanding kan kehidupan yang sangat singkat d muka bumi ini dengan kehidupan akhirat yang kekal abadi,sanggup kah kita menggadaikan waktu,setiap detik yg kita ada ini untuk melakukan sesuatu yang lalai,atau better buat sesuatu yang dapat mengukuhkan keimanan kita supaya mendapat keredhaan Nya... dan sesungguhnya nikmat dunia ini di sisi Allah tidak lebih daripada nilai sayap nyamuk,kerna Allah berfirman yang bermaksud jika dunia ini dijadikan nikmat nya bernilai seperti nilai sayap nyamuk,nescaya Allah tidak akan memberi nikmat ini untuk dirasa oleh orang2 kafir...

untuk berkata2 seperti ustaz tu sure la ak xpandai,tp bagi ak pengajaran ini sepatot nya dapat menjadi renungan bersama since kita bukan manusia yang sempurna lagi2 ak ni,so sama2 lah kita memperbaiki diri ke arah yang lebih baik,dan di redhai oleh Allah...ingat lah bahwa kita amat memerlukan Allah dalam kehidupan kita terutama pada zaman sekarang ini yang banyak pengaruh2 dajal ini yang cuba untuk menyesatkan pandangan bukan sahaja orang Islam tetapi juga semua penduduk d muka bumi ini dengan fitnah nya... gunakan lah masa yang ada ini, masa yang singkat ini untuk mencari keredhaan Allah,supaya d akhir nanti kita bisa bertemu di syurga yang nyata, yang bernilai, dan yang kekal abadi..

wallahualam..sekadar renungan,maaf jika ada kesilapan...

so not ready...

2010-12-08T06:32:00.000-08:00

so fast, so alot, so die...am not ready for block exam, for exam biochem, n not sure d remedial...i am not for sure..down..uhhh

marrying a doctor???

2010-12-07T06:25:00.000-08:00

well first of all, now im onlining using broadband due to pulsa internet habes,ngeng,damn slow huii...so sad...
browsing some articles,some blogs n thn from fb i found diz blog titled 'why should marry a doctor?'..kekekeke,quite interesting n well written...

some sentences dat rili catch my attention were :
1st "they are well trained to listen","they offer you a tissue when you feel like crying (it is a reflex)", yes ever since in the first year we were trained to listen, give a good response, show interest in d conversation(even the truth we r not interested,hee), trained to get ur trust so dat u could share with us everything u want to share..

2nd "you can save urself the embarassment of going to a doctor with a water infection" , dear,im here to treat u personally,dont have to show ur great body to others,haha..

3rd "they can stay up all night if you want them to accompany you watching a horror movie because they are used to have 'on call'", means we owez here for u babe...

n also got doz thing like can monitor ur health all d time n others,..but there r one more thing i think not stated der dat is "u dont have to worry about us flirting around with other girls",since i would b damn bz for us during work(i think so)hehe.. or maybe we would usha some hot nurses in d hospital,who knows rite,..haha.. k lah,done with blogging,i wana study now,tentamen damn hard i think i would fail,n need to get ready for remedial..hmm,wish me luck kayh mr blogger,chow2!!!

hard work

2010-12-03T20:47:00.000-08:00

first time u dn succeed try again n again...sure it looks cool =p

a song for a fool

2010-12-01T11:14:00.000-08:00

Thanx yaa,now i noe how pathetic i am..

2010-11-28T08:38:00.000-08:00

u never do the same...

balik-bosan....

2010-11-13T02:00:00.000-08:00

ingtkan balik bley nk hepi2,tut tut jadi gini,bosan...llambat nya nk blk jogja..=(

for d last time......

2010-11-10T05:15:00.000-08:00

u gimi song,u try to change,then u just go away..well dats u i noe it oredi...

so i will make sure dat diz is d very last time i contact u for sure,sori dat i wud not rep u nmore after diz s i want to make a vow to,if i ever try to reach u again,ill make sure ill never live in peace...so long goodbye,behave urself,plzz do a self reflection once in a while

thanks dad...thanks mom

2010-11-09T06:38:00.000-08:00

to those who still have parents,plz appreciate them s long they r still here..Y(",Y)

at last...

2010-11-08T15:51:00.000-08:00

6.45am-i reached kelantan,superb!!!loving it,feel so secure,so strong,so adorable,haha...i took a cab just now,reached home,n hugged my mum,ate cake,hug mekti,gave mekti n mekyam friskies,n now online,what a wonderful day compare to what had happen in the past few weeks...thanks ya Allah for still giving me chance to live,..

so at Solo,we all had to fly back by c-130 to Malaysia because all flights canceled to Solo,Bandung, n almost to all the places in Java island except Surabaya because of the hot cloud that may danger the flights...but thanks to TUDM,they brought their C-130 to bring us home,thanks...n also thanks to my seniors for your hardwork,n for being so nice to let us go first,woaa,nice!!!hehehe.....

so now hopefully they would extend the holidays so that i could celebrate Raya Haji here,perghh!!!,so long goodbye Jogja,miss u damn much already,ehehe,chow

at last....

2010-11-05T09:00:00.000-07:00

yeah now im in solo, d evacuation or d rescue team had arrive,thanx...at last i can sleep in peace,n insyaAllah tomorrow flight TUDM or maybe if we are lucky got MAS flight will come and take us home...now im staying at a hotel,got briefing just now by kedutaan besar malaysia di indonesia,n surely it was a relief when just now i found dat we will off home...not because i want to skip d class,but d condition in Jogja is really bad...if its just abit not ok thn i rather b here for class since i dont want to replace d class after diz,it will b so bz after diz!!!...
ashes,dust everything so terrible,dat i act need to wear spec everywhere since it keeps to enter my eyes,n any hole dat wide open,haha..n also my hair now is so sticky,like just finish swimming in the sea like dat.......
for now just pray d best for us,thanx

im sca......im quite worried

2010-11-04T12:20:00.000-07:00

tonite d volcano erupt again,but not d warning eruption la,d real 1,... we can hear d sounds of it from cemara 5 wic far away(15km) from dat mountain!!!urghh...plus,the duration quite long till now still can hear d sounds...i just worried if any earthquake would happen since diz eruption is worse than d1 in 2006,s said by d metro tv(berita utama lah tu)...

but still now we all still act calm,some did comment2 kt fb,some play dota,got ppl who study for phisio tomorrow,n some try to sleep...if i view d outside, i can c doz ashes n d view become quite blur... so rite now its raining actually,but not d normal 1,got stone of volcano n ashes,nice ass... i wish it would end fast, i cant focus on my study if it continues to be like diz....damn!!! now how much i grateful if got to study in Malaysia, love u man...

pray for us, for Indonesia, especially for d1 who stay in Yogyakarta k...

oligo oligo

2010-10-31T07:02:00.000-07:00

every1 ready with all the documents in their bag just in case there wud b evacuation,hehe

artist next to me?haha

gwen n daryll,today daryll learn new word,'letih',haha

jeyaaaaa,sean kingston

the ashes,got alot here everywer

so tomorrow is going to be a hectic life again,but its ok lah...i enjoy alot already within dis few days...n for diz coming block,i pomis u mr blogger i gonna struggle hard,get good result,good pointer,n also dnt want to fail nmore in any pretest for sure...bt thn,still its just wishes rite??no1 ever noe how its goin to be...

diz few days i was so damn relief,n it was soo enjoyable,..i not even hold a book once,i enjoyed play pool(quite upset ders no snooker here),hang out wit frens at amplaz,play futsal n everything,although jpa dont allow us to go out,hehhehheh,since ders alot of ashes everywer,so shhhh,...

joget pahang

2010-10-27T21:11:00.001-07:00

arghhh,damn u joget pahang,hahaha,wowowowlolololo,malu weyyyyyy

viva medika viva medika.....

2010-10-27T20:37:00.000-07:00

tentamen...............accomplished~walau cukup makan
histology..............done
first jump.............success
block assessment.......hampeh
second jump............ok la
third jump.............pending...tetttetttettt....

please dear Lord, give me spirit, give me ur blessing, so that i could change to better man,....

these muscles injured, the brain malfunction, i just want to enjoy all these please, medic is fun,yeah medic is fun indeed....

so far so good, indonesia is fun, to be more specific jogja is fun, its more to suburb or i can say town, not too crowded with car(still crowded with a lot of motorcycles) since the roads are straight and simple. the foods and the peoples are just nice.

but Merapi???

had give me bunch of problems already...it...suck

gtg now,got joget pahang rehearsal for this coming culture night day..chow3

may Allah bless you all

2010-10-22T08:41:00.000-07:00

study hard.....but still,tonite i waste time facebooking,games etc...

im missing her....but she refused to talk to me.........

exam next week,...but i only read 2 lecture slide,got lot more to work on....

what am i doing ni???im here not for a vacation babeh,im here to study...urghh...may Allah bless me n u all for diz coming exam n forever.....amiinn

selamat hari raya!!!

2010-09-04T01:35:00.000-07:00

it almost a month here...i had my orientation week,n it sucks alot...but then,i got many friends during the orientation week.i mean indonesian's friends.. 1 thing i realised about them is dat dey ol sooo friendly n oso open minded...''

then d lectures started,...at this early stage i think it was fun...lama dah xmasuk lecture hall weh...n mtcah as usual sleeping2,syokkk nye die tido,haha..

now waiting for tuesday to come...urghhh,run faster la babeh,i wana b home,laparrr!!!=)

again n again

2010-05-25T13:19:00.000-07:00

again i miss u alot, i never mean to hurt u, i never mean to mess up ur life, im trying everything to make u hepi, n diz is d least i could do, dont wori, i still want to try harder, s if i can~ c u soon, better to c u soon, s i just cant wait to have u by my side~its lonely here

2010-04-28T04:47:00.000-07:00

so, again, i am missing you.. just like any other day.. we are so far apart.. all i can do is stare at your photos, analyse each of our photos together.. imagining that you are by my side. pretending that we are near.. but of course, i know.. deep inside, we are near.

;(

2010-04-23T10:11:00.000-07:00

ati ni celaru tade sape yg amik taw,uhhh,mekyam pon sibok dgn ank2 die,yg sorang lg sibok d buai mimpi indah kot, takpe,pape pon,tomorrow ade exam, rmbt x dye itam lagik ni,kang kena reject ngan panel esk,haha,layannn...

lately ive been stunned in front of d television by a drama adamaya,haha,enjoy it so much,.. in my opinion, both of them, dani n adam are innocent,.. dani n maya r both in love wit each other bt d way of dani handle their relationship is wrong,haha,bengong ni layan adamaya kt sini...k2,back to d point,maya is cute =D,eh silap i mean maya is a gud girl.... errr,ntah,no mood oredi,haha,malu kokram eh story adamaya sini =D..babai...

tag by bilah =D

2010-04-08T06:10:00.000-07:00

1. Siapakah anda di rumah?

seorang penganggur yg sering mitop duit ngan mama n abah,employed by my parents...

2. Siapakah diri anda di samping rakan?

penganggur,i love being among them,bt idk wether thy love me onot ^^

3. 5 benda yang anda idamkan tetapi masih belum tercapai?

1~fairlady z

2~superbike

3~ibanez joe santiano

4~iphone 3gs 32GB,hihi

5~ps3

4. Siapakah nama pasangan anda?

my lovely ellisa eguardo,love u babe,hehe

5. Ceritakan 5 perkara yang anda paling suka tentang pasangan anda.

1~shes hot

2~dia manje

3~her voice sweet

4~she love to laugh xingt dunia,hihi

5~nothing particular,bcoz i still love her whoever she is

6. Bila tarikh anda couple?

2nd time neh on 23rd of march,hehe

7. Apakah kenangan pahit anda bersama pasangan anda?

break up =(

8. Lagu tema cinta anda?

bnyk sgnt,nk hok mane?haha,..

9. Apa perubahan yang ingin anda lihat dari pasangan anda?

biar lahh hoktu,lmbt lg,haha

10. Tag 5 rakan ada yang lain.

1~ellisa

2~mizang

3~ijat

4~spark

5~maisara

the thruth is..

2010-04-02T02:26:00.001-07:00

i love noor ellisa.

with all my heart.

and i can't live without her.

cos i will miss her smile before i go to sleep.

her voice is like a lullaby to me.

the scent of hers evokes the sweetest moment in life.

nothing matters..

cos the truth is i love noor ellisa.

grow up man

2010-03-23T11:14:00.000-07:00

since its d beginning of everything,i should take actions...well im not rili ready for this,to leave all fun stuffs behind,n move ahead to an adult world... how can i change my routine of 'tickling' my beloved ibanez everytime i saw her alone in my bed, how can i stop from listening to eric clapton song every single hour without concentrating to any other things,hihi,n how can i change all these!!! wic oredi become part of me... bt sincerely,i will change sumhow

tomorrow is d big day since d book/s will arrive by mr postman n its d beginning of it... bt,ummm, i think i would just kip it under my bed for a while,bcoz i want to stay focus for my last enjoyfull genting trip diz saturday,hehe...n i pomis u mr blogger,i will strive for d best for this coming exam, prepare for party Gajah Mada,wait for my arrival at d airpot!!!hahaha... urrghh,i think wen im der, first thing 1st i would do is to challenge jojo for my beloved bella,haha,tasbih cinta beb!!!lu tunggu ak jojo,akn ku rampas cewek lu kerna kalian sama skali enggak cocok berdua,hihihi...

urghhh,tomorrow im going to date with my atok at hospital,well,its about 3am oredi,well then,c u tomorrow mr blogger~~

r u gonna b my girl?

2010-03-21T11:44:00.001-07:00

pheuuuuwww,im totally addicted to this song,wic also means sumting for me,ouchhh,jiwo d male2 buto,haha...well girl,im seriously rili into u,i hope u wud notice dat since ive waited for a long time for u n i to have diz opportunity,hihihi,so r u gona b my girl??since ill owez love u more thn any1 else,errkkk...sumday,i will tell u everythng wen ders a suitable timing,haha,so wait for me plzzz =P

unexpected again n again

2010-02-26T12:46:00.000-08:00

am i owez over confident of doin sumting???bt in d end, things dat im confident about will definitely end up worst..bt sumting opposite owez epen wen i feel quite not confident of doin it,wats wrong babe??chill =D

firstly in spm

2nd making decision for applying scholar

3rd during interview

4th during as result

5th in love

6th during alevel result

7th .....................again n again, never ever like i expected epen

well,we just plan ahead for anything,bt in d end, Allah d greatest wud choose d best for us,pray hard,n never ever over confident for sumting or u wud regret in d end,.. tq Allah,

ohh sy syg itik sy~

2010-02-26T12:35:00.000-08:00

kepada itik yg d sayangi,tuan mu nk berpesan,mkan larr bnyk3 lg,jd gemok,cpt2 besar k,nnt boleh sy sembelih wt itik goreng,hak3...love u!!!awww

to my dearest friend

2010-02-19T06:54:00.000-08:00

im sorry, bt diz is it, u seem ok wen we all hanging out toghtr, bt suddenly sumting like diz epen n its like toyah said, 'this is unforgivable mistake!!'.. i juz to advice u 1 thing, dont b too emotional lar s diz is not d end of d world yet like u ever over thinking it, n like how ur frens think at first,we all juz d same dear.. juz to think of a song 21 guns, they are absolutely rite at ur state like diz,

"your faith was the broken glass,
and the hangover doesnt pass,
nothing's ever built to last"

"did u try to live on ur own??,
when u burned down the house n home,
did u stand too close to the fire,
like a liar looking for forgiveness from a stone"

to b rational, this is my advice to u, dont ever do sumtim dat are stupids like u did b4, wateva it is, u must noe dat ur motives in life is not dat dear, Allah noes whatever test He gives to us, n He said,

"We do not lay a burden on anyone beyond his capacity." (Quran: 23:62)...

so i noe u can simply over come this, n in my opinion y things ever epen to b like diz is simply bcoz ur not rational, n its a big opprtunity for demon to lead u to a wrong way,thing looks simple for u,bt wat if u died? do u ever want to meet Allah the Mighty with ur condition like dat??xmalu ko??..n bcoz of sum1 like dat,BULLSHIT!!!

"Experience is a hard teacher because she gives the test first, the lesson afterwards".,

u noe, maisara faced it already, even i noe how dat feel, bt in d meantime in diz state of recovery, dont ever try to do sumtim soo stupid like u have done i dunno wen,i think its still fresh kot,.. i noe u s a very cheerful girl b4 diz, notim for u is a big matter, i even lol wen u told me how did farhan tackle u in d middle of scndry schl,.. so b STRONG, b HAPPY, PRAY alot, RECITE the holy Quran alot, hang out with FRIENDS alot, u can DO IT,.. they all LOVE u, well im not,haha.. bolarhh jiwo2,jom HEPI2!!!

well owez keep in ur mind like diz,

"HE didn't give us what we want, but HE always give what we NEED".

so to make it easier owez pray to Him permudahkanlah semua nya,v hok TERBAEKK ko wira,amiinn

credit to azwira hashim,btol kot =)

last nite was not sumtim to b remembered

2010-02-17T22:10:00.000-08:00

last nite my head was spinning around like a drunker who got smashed by ibanez r-series electric guitar bcoz of his stupidness for cutting all d 6strings in d middle of d final showdown..urhh holyshiteeee u damn drunker!!bang!bang!!c u in hell dude..woaaa im dead!..well timah was rite, like she said, 'im going to help u to solve this problem,but plzz help urself first!!!'.. sumhow i was so blurred since d beginning when everything never ever rite. i asked 'tut', 'tut', n yet they said they dont even noe when was d date line to sent all these, n suddenly, soooo out of blue then i asked timah bout this, 'weyyyy,date line ESOKKK!!!'..so wat im supposed to do dude??yet im lucky to ask d rite person then, ^^...

i felt better wen noe d truth n d informations were already clear..so i was thinking to submit it to auni,ok,everything seem smooth...n suddenly,'(&^%&(%&($^#%$@&(koklangkolangpornstarphototo viewblalala&^$^&$$*(&(' appeared..wargggghhh,i reboot my computer n dunno wat to do,its 12.30 oredy n auni sibok2 asked for d documents, sorie auni,im working on it..tutt2!!adoii,im soo fucking tired,sicked of all these,my brain not even working,my nose never ever stopped sucking bck d green fluid,my head still,spinning2 like im overdose or wat??so fed up n frustrating,my computer pulak start dah cant install tu la,cant install ni larr,all of these bcoz of this fucking modem... sumhow,auni ckp,'lek toriq,ill help u ok,dnt wori still ade mase'...urhh tq2,tenang ati jiwa raga neh...

i took my laptop,hoping dat she wud solved ol these n yet..rili larr,i dunno how last nite everything were soo maja,or sue, or soo bad luck to me wen my laptop startd to jam out of sudden,shiteeee again!!!! well,i said to auni,go to sleep,ill try bck tomorrow,n this morning,i start all these with basmallah n it turnd well,alhamdulillah tq Allah.,..

thanx to all for helping me out with these problems,credit to auni n timah,tq soo much..

a moment to remember~

2010-02-10T11:16:00.000-08:00

currently in a state of no good, n every moment passing by make me more sad,to leave alot of buddies which are so special for me,but the time will come,and before that,i wish u guys gud lark with ur journey to india,n for all of us here,lets make it a enjoyable moment together till they are coming back to melaka, ^ ^,during that time,pink!!!may i hug u??hak3,.. n sorry for everything ive done,well u guys noe me,mulut kadang2 xley nk jage sgnt,potpet2 mcm itik,hehe...so wish u guy gud lark n success...sekian..so long goodbye =)